Random

is almost 12am right now.
and i am still blogging here
sign!
tomorrow is my IF midterm
No motivation to study at all
Don't really know what the notes talking about
Don't know what am i struggling now
I just left around two chapter
omg!
please give me some motivation
i just want to finish off

Epic Failed

just now when i was in the class.
i received a message where its makes me no mood to continue on
I forced myself not to tear it out
i tried so hard to focus on class
but i failed

My tears finally can out when i reached home
Crying like a child non-stop
i am just so epic fail!
Suddenly feel like not going home this week
Don't ever ever
have a feeling that get abandon
i thought will treat back the same thing to me
I really don't know who should I talk to
i don't know where should i express out
i am fucking so damn right now.
I don't know what's going on
please..... just leave alone
i need to be more independent
more understandable
more mature
I need to be more balance

Why i can such a bad guy??
A thousand reason for not to be like that
why i still acting like this??
Why am i so selfish?
Why?
oh my god
please stop my tears
feel like wanna go a place that can make my mind clear.

     

讨厌这样的自己

不能再意气用事
不能再要求什么
不能再长不大了
不能再哭了
我真的不能再这样下去了，
其实比起不好意识
伤心更不好受

咳！

有的时候是我太过偏激嘛？
还是自己在执着些什么？
我应该
忍着，
就不用面对各种问题
忍着，
就不会有今天的尴尬
不知道自己执着些什么
到会头是自己辛苦
我承认我承受不起被别人的批评

咳，
也许不应该太在乎别人心中的自己
也在乎不了太多！

Today is not my day

Time pass too fast
Time is wait for no man
Is already middle of my this semester
going to begin my assignment, midterm and presentation weeks
tons of task waiting me to touch them
but i just don't feel like do anything
i hate those tasks
All the assignment please just leave my alone
killing me so damn well
This is my life

Today is not my day
And i don't think will be have a better day tomorrow
I am average negative person

一个人的不习惯

新学期了
一个人的日子开始了
看到自己的学院
看到那些教室
看到那些学生
那么陌生
很陌生
好像从没来过这个地方
陌生的感觉原来是那么的可怕

回到家，
同样的桌子
同样的两张床
还是一样那么陌生

对着电脑
整个房间很安静
听着风扇的声音
那个声音一样那么陌生

想家了啊！
一年的时间其实很长
长到足够的时间来改掉我那些的不习惯

不哭

忍着不哭!
真的不能哭
为什么又是我?
为什么我是永远的失败者!
是我不够努力吗?
还是我无论怎么努力还是一样!
真的和很想放弃
我真的不想让任何人失望的
真心不想！
真的像想死的感觉！
其实我不是该习惯这感觉吗
忍着不哭! 真的很幸苦,很幸苦!

A.L.O.N.E

                                                     

alone

Is already one week past

Time really wait for no man

Just left one more week for my semester break

after a week ago,
I have to start with my new semester
ya, year 3 semester 1

i need to breakfast alone, lunch alone, dinner alone

sleep alone, go campus alone !

just all alone !

i just realized i am afraid to be alone.

Feel so alone and lost

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i need to learn alone

seem so hard for me 

Why am i so afraid to being alone?

Suddenly all the things feel so strange !

Happy Mother day !

"Sorry Mom!"
is everything i could not, did not want to
and never have this chance to say to my mom
Welp, i am not a good daughter my mom has.
I know i am a temperamental person.
Every time my tiredness was being misunderstood by my mom.
Sorry for my sometime scolding, arguing, silencing and lying

You are the best mom i could ever ask for in the whole wide world
You are fabulous that i ever met for.
Thank you for giving me a world

O.V.E.R

Today is my last paper.
again, so succccck
trying so hard to memorize
When the time i started my paper
My brain was completely blank
Fuck my life
What for i am trying so hard to study ?
I don't want to fail any subject again
I need reassurance before my Hong Kong trip

Anyway
Thank God its over !
My degree year 2 life is finally ended.
Mother's day is coming around
I am sudden strike of homesick.
Two days more to go back my HOME
Just two weeks of sem break.
really not enough for me.
I gonna plan my sem break and my HK trip too.

H.A.T.E

Picture of last night

Sometime i am overprotecting myself
trying hard to hide myself in a deep sea
save face of me seem so scary

Sometime do not even know how to express my own feeling
that such a epic fail of me
Do not like people have any chance to discuss about me
Should i describe myself "overprotecting"
okay, Soooo weird

Damn
i trying to change but i failed to do it
i really seem so fail

H.A.T.E myself well
 

Last Two Paper

Selca


Done for my last two paper
And now preparing my last paper for my Year 2 semester 3
And my last paper is coming very very soon
and its cover all chapter
i know the lecturer trying to kill me
today paper so suck
somehow i can't finish on time
TAXATION please don't fail me
praying hard

                  Time pAST So fast!~

Gonna say bye to Year 2 life

H.B.D.

my little cute cousin

Happy birthday to my little ka hong!

All the best for your future too.... 
Love him ... muazzzzz 

Monkey D Luffy

Happy birthday to Monkey D Luffy

I has used quite lot time for searching his photo.

miss the day where i was non stop watching one piece

is epic bored for one week one episode 

can't update more 

i am extremely sleepy right now 

Goodnight world 

Public Holiday

Scope of my taxation test! hope to finish by today !

Woke up at 9, overslept again

And I have thousand things need to do today

Preparing to go library as usual 

Despite this, when we were reached UTAR

It was already half past eleven

And yet here was no sign of any single person at campus

The Security Guards told us that today is WESAK DAY

Public Holiday 

My study plan has gone !

Just finished my brunch with my sister.

and of course now is extremely full.

Y.C.

Dinner

Just back from YC plus dinner too

And we have dinner at pasar just now

Have a great talk with my friends

I seriously did nothing tonight!

My next paper will be held at Monday.

No study mood at all =(

The pimples on my face is enough to kill me off

hate it well.

I am blogging here while i am loading "Gloves Come Off" ep 15

my line here is so damn slow

Sleepy Sleepy !

Goodnight world !

T.G.I.F

I just dragged myself out of the bed.

Extremely tired to wake up in the early morning.

It takes me at least 20minutes for me to be fully awake.

My panda eye of course getting serious =(

Last night, when i was jolted out of my dream

That was causing so much commotion from someone else for preparing for her paper

anyway, fine.

i just continued sleep like a dead.

so here to wish "u" good luck for your paper later

T.G.I.F

And I am going out to Library to start my study plan.

That what my life is. damn it.

bye.

Random~!

Goodnight world

Just finished done my homework

oh well,

Is time to start do revision for my taxation!

NOT revision! Not even TOUCH the notes at all.

Taxation is really driving me hard.

someone please stopping me blogging here.

DAMN, My panda eye is appeared again.

I need a long rest in the middle of the MAY to cure my panda eye !

B.A.C.K

Yellow Shirt !

I'm BACK !

Such a long time abandoned this blog !

I miss my old day while i looking back to my previous post !

just back from Corporate Governance Test !

Thousand sigh for my test can't take it away.

i NEED more time please.

Left two more paper to go.

God Bless me !

Hope everything will be fine.

p/s : counting down for my last paper.