Epic Failed

just now when i was in the class.
i received a message where its makes me no mood to continue on
I forced myself not to tear it out
i tried so hard to focus on class
but i failed

My tears finally can out when i reached home
Crying like a child non-stop
i am just so epic fail!
Suddenly feel like not going home this week
Don't ever ever
have a feeling that get abandon
i thought will treat back the same thing to me
I really don't know who should I talk to
i don't know where should i express out
i am fucking so damn right now.
I don't know what's going on
please..... just leave alone
i need to be more independent
more understandable
more mature
I need to be more balance

Why i can such a bad guy??
A thousand reason for not to be like that
why i still acting like this??
Why am i so selfish?
Why?
oh my god
please stop my tears
feel like wanna go a place that can make my mind clear.

     

讨厌这样的自己

不能再意气用事
不能再要求什么
不能再长不大了
不能再哭了
我真的不能再这样下去了，
其实比起不好意识
伤心更不好受

咳！

有的时候是我太过偏激嘛？
还是自己在执着些什么？
我应该
忍着，
就不用面对各种问题
忍着，
就不会有今天的尴尬
不知道自己执着些什么
到会头是自己辛苦
我承认我承受不起被别人的批评

咳，
也许不应该太在乎别人心中的自己
也在乎不了太多！

Today is not my day

Time pass too fast
Time is wait for no man
Is already middle of my this semester
going to begin my assignment, midterm and presentation weeks
tons of task waiting me to touch them
but i just don't feel like do anything
i hate those tasks
All the assignment please just leave my alone
killing me so damn well
This is my life

Today is not my day
And i don't think will be have a better day tomorrow
I am average negative person